Feelin' alright

Funny thing happened recently. A very nice friend of mine gave me a beautiful pair of jeans that no longer fit her (her "fat clothes"- ha!). I had my doubts that even her fat clothes would fit me but she insisted I try them. Turns out they are probably still a size too small. I can zip them up, but honestly wouldn't be seen in public wearing them. A small part of me thought "if only I could fit into these- what a shame because they're so beautiful, and I'll never buy a 300$ pair of jeans- in this lifetime anyway" but you know what? A bigger part of me said "it's really too bad they don't fit, and although the old me may have endeavoured to make myself smaller so that I could wear them, the new me will set them aside, give them back or pass them on because they just don't fit, and I'm okay with that."

Imagine. If I had told this to my old self, I would have been stunned at this realization. Seriously. There have been years where I just haven't been happy with the way I look, but in the last year, I really have made peace with my size, my shape and what I look like. Could I be more active and more fit? Definitely. Do I have a burning desire to be smaller? Nope. *pause for effect*....Still nope.

I am blessed to be in this place. I hope for all of you that you find it too. :)

Feelin' alright